
Too Much of a Woman
A Poem by Marce Nefechi
I am too much of a woman to fold myself into polite corners
Too much of a woman to stay quiet while they rewrite my worth
Too much of a woman to bend my back when the world weighs on it
Too much of a woman to smile when they tell me not to
Too much of a woman to let the cracks in my bones stay unnoticed
I am the first to arrive and the last to leave,
The one who carries everyone’s burdens and forgets her own
The one who sweeps floors, folds laundry, reads reports,
navigates meetings, listens to complaints
Who apologizes for being tired, for being angry, for existing
I am the woman whose ideas are stolen and claimed as someone else’s
Whose voice is interrupted, whose hand is overlooked
Whose labor is measured in cents, whose effort is invisible
Whose worth is questioned, whose body is critiqued
Whose anger is a problem, whose desire is dangerous
Whose love is too much, whose power is too loud
Still, I rise through it all.
I am the daughter who hides bruises so no one will shame her
The sister who defends her sibling even at her own cost
The mother who counts every coin
Who prays that the world does not crush the small dreams she carries
Who works, who hopes, who bends, who breaks
but keeps going because there is no other choice but to be fierce.
I am the woman who laughs at jokes meant to hurt
Who grits her teeth at the sideways glance, the whispered insult
The eye that rolls, the word that bites
The hands that try to keep her in place
The walls built to contain her
and I slip past them anyway
I slip past them anyway, I slip past them anyway.
I am too much of a woman to be polite
Too much of a woman to be small
Too much of a woman to dim the fire that grows in my chest
even when they say it should not exist,
even when they say it is dangerous,
even when they try to clip the wings I never asked permission for.
I am the one who loves too loudly
Who cries too easily
Who laughs too freely
Who fights too hard
Who dreams too wide
Who burns too bright
And I do not apologize
I do not apologize
I do not apologize.
I am the storm in the office, the heat in the kitchen
The pulse in the street, the voice in the court
The insistence of existence when they say I should vanish
The bending and breaking and rising and shining
all in one body, all in one mind,
all in one heart that refuses to be silent.
I am the woman who feeds, who fights, who loves
Who risks everything, who still rises when they say I cannot
Who claims my body, my time, my words
Who walks in the world like it belongs to me because it does
Who laughs in their faces because my joy is mine
My fire is mine
My life is mine.
I am too much of a woman for this world
Too bold, too brilliant, too alive
And if they are afraid, let them be afraid
Because I will not shrink,
I will not bend
I will not apologize for being every part of myself
I will rise, I will shine, I will take up space
I will carry my history, my pain, my power
And I will be uncontainable.
I am the weight of all women who came before me,
The pulse of all women who will come after
The fire in their hands, the light in their eyes
The song that refuses to end
The story that will not be erased
The brilliance that cannot be dimmed
I am too much of a woman
I am everything.